It's Over.

Okay. Auditions on Monday, arrived at the CEPA (Center for Education and Performing Arts) and met up with friends; Jam, Megan, Laura (the one who said she would be Tiger Lily...she's actually cool and we're friends now) and Ashley. i filled out my audition form (Alice in Alice in Wonderland DID look awesome, btw) and then picked up a sheet of lyrics for Seasons of Love from Rent. Turns out that was the song we were going to sing in groups. i'm so glad i didn't sing that song for auditions because i came thiiiiiiiis close to choosing that instead of my song....



Mhm. i did Tomorrow. :D In the end it was the one i could sing best, i guess. i was given the number 24, Jam was 25. They finally called us into the dressing room and i was still calm, just hoping i wouldn't decide to freak out at the last minute and ruin everything. i walked onto the stage, still keeping my cool (yusss!!) and got to "when i'm stuck with a day that's gray..." before Mr. Gossett stopped me. After that i realized i was shaking. i read the Wendy monologue, and the Peter Pan monologue (that was cool). He asked me to do it "boyish" and i did the best i could....he's already told me before i did very well with cold readings so i hope i didn't disappoint him this time.

Then yesterday...everyone came back to the CEPA for the 2nd audition and this time we all sat in the house and just sang along with the CD version of Seasons of Love. Then we went up in groups to sing it on the stage (i volunteered for the first group) and sang it karaoke. Man i sucked! i put one finger in my ear to drown out everyone else and just listen to myself. i know i did MUCH better with the Annie song.

It just got worse. Mr. Gossett's sister Kimberly showed up to teach us a few quick dance moves. The problem was, she spent so little time teaching it, it felt like i only had moments to learn it before the music started playing and we did the same move over and over in front of the judges. i never got the moves until the other groups started going up and i got a few minutes to do it again to myself. FRUSTRATING. :P

Song playing: Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down

i think Shelby Hartley will definitely be in it...she had very good balance and movement and probably singing skills but she's overweight so the harness that the major characters wear to fly probably wouldn't hold her. Jam will probably get a major part. She's skinny and pretty...not the best at singing but she's got potential. Connie Kempffer, for sure. She's Mr. Gossett's pet. She might get Wendy or even Peter. The others i'm not sure about. There were probably a lot of good ones but i never saw them perform solo.

i don't think i'm going to make it.
Oh well.

Audition update

Audition Songs:

Somebody to Love - Queen
Jack's Lament - The Nightmare Before Christmas
Annie & Warbuck song from Annie
That tomorrow song - Annie

i sang Somebody to Love to myself last night. i used to be able to sing my lungs out all the time, because when we lived in Chicago i would have some time to myself after i came home from school, before my mom came home from work. i would sing as loudly as i wanted to. God i loved to sing. i still do, but i don't get to as much anymore since there's almost always someone home here, and even if i was alone i wouldn't be comfortable enough to do it, anyway. i don't know, i guess i'm always paranoid someone left a recording device on somehow and my horrible singing would be caught on tape. >< So to get some privacy, i turned my music way up and crawled under my desk and sang loudly to myself in the corner. i guess i did pretty well; my voice kind of sounded like Brie Larson. Only she's way better. Maybe it was because i haven't sung in a while (is that grammatically correct??) and i didn't talk much that day. If that's what makes me sing well, then i'm going to duct tape my mouth shut every other period on the day of the vocal auditions. i'm still kinda trying to figure out what 32 measures of a song equals. Mr. Gossett (intro to theatre teach) told me to count the beats. i'm afraid i'll get it wrong, but i suppose if i go too far they'll just have to stop me. i missed the drama club meeting that gave details about the auditions. Big mistake. i'm such an idiot. i could have scoped out the competition, but instead i sat in the cafeteria before homeroom, fucking around with my stupid friends. (: i seriously doubt i'm getting a part now. But i at least have to try; i'll regret it if i don't. Two more days. Cross your fingers, people. i want to be able to do something after school for once. :P