Suicide & Peter Pan

So yesterday i was talking to my boyfriend's ex best friend and he said he was going to kill himself.

He loves me. Even though he knows i have John.

i eventually convinced him not to die. i was surprised that i started crying. i didn't know he meant that much to me. and i wonder if that is a bad thing. i'm not going to cheat on John again, though, no matter what. That was a big mistake, i'll tell you that.




So the school is doing the fall play, which is always a big deal. This year it's a musical. The production is:


i'm going to try to audition, if i'm brave enough. When i went to the auditorium to do the Alice auditions, i remember almost turning around a dozen times, especially when i went inside and saw how many people were there, especially the seniors. i knew they were thinking, Ha! Look at the little sophomore, i bet she thinks she can be Alice. But then again, i went through with it and it acually turned out really cool. So i just might be able to do it again. And just imagine how awesome "Was Alice in Alice in Wonderland" will look on my audition form.


For the audition you need to do 3 things. You will be given a speech to do a cold reading with, a few simple dance steps to perform, and if you are trying out for one of the major roles, you have to sing 32 measures of a song that describes your personality. So so far i have the uncut list of songs i might sing for the auditions:

Revolution - Beatles
Bring on the Rain - Jo Dee Messina
How I Could Just Kill a Man - Charlotte Sometimes
Anything But Ordinary - Avril Lavigne
Breath - Breaking Benjamin
Somebody to Love - Queen
Sorry - Buckcherry
Over You - Daughtry
The Reason - Hoobastank
Don't Worry, Be Happy - Bob Marley
Here Without You - Three Doors Down
All You Need is Love - Beatles
Life is a Highway - Rascal Flatts
Sally's Song - The Nightmare Before Christmas Soundtrack
Jack's Lament - The Nightmare Before Christmas Soundtrack
Breath - Anna Nalick
and that song that goes "anything you can do, i can do better, i can do anything better than you."

Obviously, i'm going to be adding and narrowing it down a LOT. Auditions are on the 25th and 26th of this month, i think. So i have only a week and a few days left. Hopefully i can pick a song and work on it enough by then. Let me know what you think.

i have no idea who i'm going to audition for. Sometimes i'm just like, Fuck it. i don't care who i am, i just wanna be in the show. Other times i really want to have a major part again.

i've already had one chick come up to me and be like, "Are you trying out for Peter Pan? Don't try out for Tiger Lily." She told me she's taken ballet since she was very young and that she was sure she would get the part. i'm pretty sure she saw me in Alice and that's why she's warning me. But she just happens to be fat and i'm not sure how agile she's going to be onstage. So that's what i have to say about that.


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